Have I told you how much I LOVE MY SON???

School has resumed from Summer break! This is the LAST summer that he will be returning to High School. He will be furthering his education but it will be in the ADULT world. College is so different than high school and he is no longer a KID! He is Growing into a MAN before my eyes!!! You would think that I would worry LESS but I worry way MORE!!!! IS THIS NORMAL??? When they are little you take them where they need to go. Now he goes on his own. When they are little you are involved in play dates with other children and their mother. Now he won't allow that. Believe me I would like it if I could tag along on his every outing! When they are young they come and tell you all of their fears! Now he keeps things more to himself. When they are young they think mom and dad know everything. When they are older they have figured out that mom and dad make mistakes. When they are little you can tuck them in and say their prayers and snuggle. When they are older you can tell them you love them and goodnight from across the room, and trust you have taught them to not forget to thank their Heavenly Father that so richly has blessed them with another day of life! It is sooooo hard. Letting GO! How do you do it?? I have not figured that out and to be honest I am NOT ready too. He keeps telling me that he will be starting College IN JUNE after he graduates! June 3rd to be exact! That is LESS than a year a way! He plans to attend out of state and that REALLY TEARS ME UP! I love him soooo much and can not bear to think about going up those stairs to a lifeless room. Noise is not what I am talking about......I am talking about knowing that my son is upstairs and safe! Safe from the many things that ADULTS face everyday! I do not know how people who do not have God in their lives manage to let go. I have always prayed but I REALLY Pray without ceasing as I am learning to let go and let GOD have HIS Johnathan. I think about Abraham and Isaac in the Bible and how Abraham was ask to Sacrifice Isaac. Of course God stopped him and he didn't have to go through with it. But he would have if God hadn't stopped him. Can you imagine the faith it took to trust God?? I stand in awe of our great GOD and the provision that He always provides. He knows what each of His children need and I take great comfort knowing that HE WILL CONTINUE to be with Johnathan. AND~~~ YOU know what ??? He will provide the comfort and direct me as I begin the letting go process!!!!! I just have to TRUST and PRAY!!!!