I am in SHOCK!!!

I talked to Gail and the missionary family feels this in not the time for them to adopt a baby. We are going to continue to pray about this situation. SO many things are going through my mind. We would not be able to send all of the children to private school. They would not have LOTS of material things. I think about activities and eating out. All the stuff that costs a fortune now to do. I am 38. I would be 58 when my youngest is 20. But...then I think what does God want for our life????? If HE has orchestrated this situation then may HE have HIS way. May He receive all the GLORY AND PRAISE. I know that HE will provide for all of our needs. I must rest in the assurance that HE is STILL IN CONTROL.........